"I don't, not really-- like I said, it's stupid and I'm just being a baby." She grasps the hand that Chloe has offered, grip firm and her gaze unwavering, even despite how dumb she feels.

"I like the way we are, but I worry about not being enough for you-- as like, corny and stupidly existential as that probably sounds." She doesn't want to bring up Rachel, she's not going to and she doesn't know if she'll ever be brave enough to ask. But there's a part of her that knows the answers to all the questions she'd want to pose anyway, just from the way Chloe's eyes light up and her voice wavers even now when she talks about her.

"I've spent basically all the time we've known each other trying to catch up with you and I'm still nowhere close to doing that-- I just.. don't want to slow you down because I don't know what you do in a real relationship." Being Chloe's nerdy friend was one thing, forcing Chloe to be complacent in something she didn't want in the name of that friendship was another thing entirely.